I have a crush
on this boy.
Let me distinguish between having a crush
and liking a boy.
You like a boy when you love to be around him.
He's your friend and you can talk,
and you wish he wanted to date you.
You have a crush when you're infatuated with someone,
and you wish you had a reason to talk to him
because if you did, he would obviously want to date you.
A crush is a lot like this:
I haven't had a crush in two years,
so it's been frustrating me.
I hate that I feel nervous and awkward around him
so I can't even get to know him
and turn this crush into liking.
What am I, in high school again?
I'm twenty-one years old.
It seems silly to worry about trying to stare at him
without him noticing.
I just want to tell him, even though it means nothing,
because that's what I do these days.
I think we should all talk about our feelings.
I think that would make me feel a lot better.
But that being said,
there is something a little magical
about having a crush on someone for no reason.
It's like archetypal human behavior.
So really, I don't mind.